now, its nightmare..... then, its not! -_-

i know when u break up or when someone very dear n close to u, leaves u.....ur whole world seems to be ruined, all those beautiful things seems to crash into tiny pieces in fronta ur eyes, u cant think rite, do anything rite etc etc! u feel as if everything u had has been snatched away from you n things like that! trust me.... its not gona be like that after a couple of weeks! it may seem impossible initially, but eventually it dos happen! so if u've broken up with ur boy friend, or lost a close friend of urs, or didnt get somone u wanted to, all u an do is enjoy the pain, heartache, depression! life dosnt offer u this all the time! its a challenge of life, face it! eventually u'l get over it!!! personally, i kinda miss all that! lol ;D

confused!!!

i really dont no what im going to do ahead - eduation wise! its really confusing! my parents want me to get in a medical collage but im never going to go there! i have a very confusing choice in my subjects, i hate physics but like maths! i love chemistry and english, dont like biology much! like geography but hate history! i dont no which way to go! =( i hope i choose the rite thing =)

life kinda sucks somtimes....

wat if no one understands u, and everybody tells u what they want u to do? all your mother and father always say is that do not waste your time on stupid things like reading books or the other stuff u really like to do in your free time and all they care about is to get good marks so that u can get into a nice college! would it really hurt them if they say jus for once to take a break for a day, do whatever u want, relax and have fun? even after your las paper of ur final exams, they tell u to work even harder for the coming examz and kinda mentally torture u! i mean we already get that from our teachers, now we dont need our dear parents to do that as well!
your friends! haw! some are real sweet.......they make life beautiful for you, bt some-some close ones- can make this place a hell hole for u! instead of helping u outa your problms, they try to make some whole new prbs for u! having these really huge fights over nothing.....now thats a real headache! i mean some people are really trying to make this place happy for emselves, please let em!
some ppl are sooooooo annoying-they can annoy u to death! make u crazy! and yes that may include ur siblings.......som ppl have nothing to do with u, bt for some reason- i dono what- they dont seem to leave u alone..........
ugh............leaves u to rott n die! lol

life is wat u make it....

hey....im back! lol! okey so...im the past few days, i had fights with two of my very good friends! :-( i loved thm...bt wel....it was really bad! a few days passed n i came to no how much they cared about me! one was being really sweet, he apologized! bt the second one.....he didn even care n i was so hurt....badly hurt! i was pretty sad for a few days...time passed on n i was waiting wonderin if he cud realize n thn we all will be happy n live happily ever after n all! bt no...sheeesh! that was so mean! he really didn care...n i thought about it n realized if somone doesnt even care how m i n all thn y shud i care abt em at all??? y shud i feel bad for somone who dosnt care...thank God i realized it! lol i mean now its a relief i dono why, feeling kind of light! i no wen i was sad, thnking abt wat happend, i didnt want to do anything n became kinda dull n my mood seemd to be off all the time n caring...bt now i tried to have fun with who i have n what i have! for a while i thought about the good things around me n wel...felt happy about it! i went for shopping, got many stuff...it was fun btw! i re-decorated my room, tried cooking som stuff n had really fun!
if we look at all the bad things i our life, thn we wont be able to even smile, we have to find n search happiness, life just offers us the chances, n we have to see em! we r the ones who can make our life exactly the way we want! look for wat makes us happy, makes us smile! n try the find the sweet lil things in life...living is tough n hard not fun, unless u make it!

ah.........finally!

yeeeeah! after a long long long time, again am here to blog! o yes i mean all this hectic schedule n studies n stufff! God! so........n the past few days, many tragedies happened! not to mention- my hearts been broken a twenty times n well.....it breaks every day! sheeesh! but hellow??? y to think abt sad things ( i was just sharing my feelings so that i can feel a lil light) n we shud talk abt aal the lovely n happy things we have! like dear God has blessed us with beautiful nature! lovely.....! i mean al the clouds n trees n well....the beautiful world! ahhh! thinking abt them makes me feel so good! o yes! wellll! feeling really happy!.................. :D

love.............!!!

uh..........finally got time to blog! so earlier while i was talking to my friend, she told me that she has a cousin who is so much in love with a girl!!! o God i felt so happy about it! but then she said that they cant be together!!!
o i cant tell how much that hurt! i tried to ask her y but she wudn't tell me!
anyways love always hurts!!! but we cant stop falling in love!!! i mean it isnt upto us who to fall in love with! its somthing out heart decides!!!

today.........

So when i woke up in the morning, i decided to study! i wasn't feeling well so i decided to let that go! while having the breakfast, i began to think about blogging!!! i recently joined here n i am so happy that i joined a whole new world n i am going to meet whole new people!!!
After a really long time i having this feeling that i am not going to be the same old girl i used to be!!! i am going to be someone who likes to make friends n discover whole new thing!!!! :D